It is really disturbing yet disappointing to know that such big event had happen to someone important but then, the only person to not know is yourself.

Then, wouldn’t you ponder how important is yourself to that person?

If what  matters most to that person is to keep such matter,
with the lack of trust that you would show care for,
with the lack of faith you would understand,
with the lack of understanding what you would think,
then maybe it ain’t any good relationship after all for that person.
 

Seriously, I never take any rides for granted cause I know so much effort have been made.
Nevertheless, I would like to speak of my appreciation once in a while just in case any of them weren’t felt by you.
Sadly, just when I thought things were getting evermore blissful, the truth hits and slammed my heart

I guess, this is the time; cause I know, he is tired.

everytime when i have nothing to do.
i see the lifes of others.
the photos by profesionals.

its really envying.
their capacity.
their views.

nonetheless, i have to make my own life.
my own view.
something's original.
and also enlarge my capacity.

jiayou ying :)

credits to fb group -
Sunrise and Sunset Photography

Set me free;
And set yourself free.

Let there be lesser hurt; lesser burden.

F.R.E.E.D.O.M awaits.. .. ..

credits to fb group -
Sunrise and Sunset Photography

People usually get motivated and get inspired!!
Yet, the drive in me seems to be consumed so fast that I often fell the sudden surge to give up.

It wasn't like this in the past.

I was pretty sure I wasn't the sort who would always be aiming high,
but I seems to be doing so unconciously.

I learnt to be more contented; nevertheless being overly contented seems to annihilate me.

Maybe I am tired... Feeling really fatique... ...

I NEED TO BE DRIVEN AND HAVE MORE INSPIRATION !!   :)


credits to fb group -
Sunrise and Sunset Photography

There is no such thing as Perfect in this world.
That may sound very cliche
but it is the truth

The average person admires perfection and seeks to obtain it.
But what's the point of achieving perfection?

There is none, nothing, not a single thing.

If something is perfect, then there is nothing left.
There is no room for imagination
No place left for a person to gain additional knowledge or abilities.

do you know what that means?

She managed to tie a knot on the cherry stalk on her first attempted!  :)
but that doesn't mean she is a good kisser I supposed... ...

Its all the brain & the technique? 

I presume everyone has countless "switches" in them.
Obviously I don't mean switches in physical, but invisible ones that all of us carry.

Many would trigger laughters, several would trigger tears, and there are some other switches that people should abstain from.
Those are the ones that when you accidentally "tiak!" on any of the switch(s), the some person would simply FLARE!!

Those are considerably sensitive switches in people where others should look out for and halt before they even reach them.


Sadly, the one I love dear, would always accidentally fall and inconsiderately crush down hard on that particular beastly switch of mine :(

He would simply turn the switch on, and leave it on.
Just like that.. .. .. How inconsiderate right?   :''(
 

When people constantly show their affection for you, you start taking it for granted.
If you don't realise how much they care for you until they're gone, you'll only be left with regret and remose.

喜 。怒 。哀 。乐
让生活有了彩虹；多姿多彩！
但却又带来了困扰和烦恼~

爱 。与 。恨；
黑 。与 。白
那只不过是一线之差。

人为什么就想留在灰色地带呢？

Like there's a saying, "You can't have the best of both worlds." Can you?
If so, 为什么人又那么谈心；总是想得到最好的每一样东西呢？

可能。。。在追去完美的人，能突破；
可是。。。往往人都太谈心了，往往不知不觉中把“性”忘掉了。

There's another saying goes...
"All men who have achieved great things have been great dreamers,"

就让我做点梦吧！
但希望不是做白日梦！><"

After so much thoughts.. .. ..I've finally WOKE UP! 
WHY be bothered by all these feelings?!
I just have to be myself, work for the better me, and be 知足.
THAT'S ALL~ Its all as simple as ABC.

I wonder why I complicates things.. ... ..

HAHAS!

Now, I've gotta count my blessings!
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Well, every since my Darling Dani Boon (xiuxiu and "Tani") and I got back on track;
Our life's been really beautiful. I'm really glad he (and I) passed the trials of this relationship.

But I have to say, he's a totally changed Man.
Someone with a BIG heart, filled with all his gentleness he never shown before.
I take my hat off you, baby! Thanks for being such a sweetheart!

Though many of times we went on IMPULSE together without control;
but we know we'll hang on thru thick and thins! LOVELOVES~

So far; we seems so enriched and filled with activities but so little time...
We went to places for photo-shooting practices;
went for jogs in at Bedok Resevoir (4.8KM!!!!);
brought Baby Rex for many Walks by the carparks; parks; blocks; resevoirs and PET/Dog farm!

We rent VCD/DVDs to watch together on weekends;
cook together - pork chops & spagetti;
and even went for mini BBQ dinner cum fishing!

We talks, sms, and have lunches on most days, and as frequent as we could.
As far as we would love to; we have our occassional eat outs;
from Chinese restaurants such as Ding Tai Feng to Typic85 Frog leg porriage to BillyBombers..

There'r still so many activities and places which we've yet to explore...
Maybe the next outing will be to Sun-tanning with REX!
He could just become a Chao-Ta hot dog! *yummylicious~ LOL!
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Ohya, my dearest just got three FOUR GLOOMY BEARS for me yesterday!!
How I wish I could get all the collection and all other GloomyBears available! x(

And I've found 2 3 out of 4 of the GloomyBears pictures:



Got this battery operated PINK Gloomy bear that kicks Chax!
(Reminds me of the first time Baby Rex swim!! KAWAII ne~`)


And also this Gloomy Bear (left) with the chocker which seems like Gloomy being in control!
(Just like REX too! WHAHA~~) **And its of a different kind of Fur (Fabric)!!

As for the other 2 Gloomy Bears, one is translucent blood // clean Gloomy,
and a PURPLE Vampire Gloomy with Bat wings!!

OPPS! FOUND the picture of the VAMP.Gloomy!



WELL, that's for all!!


Chance upon the other GLOOMY collection By forgetful_chic on Flickr!!
From Christmas to Halloween to Baby to HelloKitty!!  HOW CUTE!!
(Specially love the bandage one in Halloween series!!)










CIAO FOR NOW..

LOVES DANI + REX & GLOOMY!!

Drifting
by Kit McCallum

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

WHY do I behave like this?
WHERE is the real me?
WHO is the real me like?
WHEN will I be the real self?
HOW can I be myself?

Yes, the typical 4W 1H questions to consist in English composition?
(which most of us were taught in Primary/Secondary school?)

I can't help but ponder.. .. ..

WHY am I behaving the way I think people should behave? The way which is right to behave.
And is there a certain behavior that is deem right in the first place? WTH.
(Right as in being nice?)

Even so the real me is evil, isn't it right to correct it?
Then would it be not me then? 

If so, me, myself and i are just a facade-
Or should I say genuinely trying to be nice?

Worst eventuates when I forsee things and try to be act in a way I deem & hopefully better for others. 
It may just be inflicting hurt unto others; yet what hurts most to is myself.
WHO would know?

Is there a exact meaning or rather 'feel' for feelings?
Can it be define and mean the exact way? I doubt so..
Though many words are use to decribe many different 'Feelings';
yet its not something that can be taught through words.
Its something one has to experience to really know them; 'feel' them.


MAYBE i'm just being EMO; AGAIN. though its not the time of the month~
I wonder why. 

Too many things; Too many happenings; To many complications.

I hope things can be much more simpler; or is it just me that complicates things?!
I KNOW ITS ME :(

WARNING!! 
PLEASE SKIP ENTRY AS IT CONTAINS VULGARITIES!!



SHIITY ASS!
How i wish this site was solely for thoughts and happy memoriable moments instead of RANTS,
BUT I CAN'T!! Guess I've gotta disappoint myself yet again~~

SHIT THE HELL OUT OF YOU, bimbo!

I need somewhere to release all my 火气 before I can concentrate on my projects.

WHAT ON EARTH is happening? WHY SHOULD I ALWAYS GET BULLIED?

She is the one happily send e-mail requesting me to handle her work.
I've done my part and there's additional email that I handled too.

BUT WHAT THE HELL!!!
HOW WOULD I POSSIBLY KNOW ALL YOUR PROJECTS?
MIND YOUR ASS BLOODY BITCH! IT YOUR PROJECTS!!

TELL ME WHY SHOULD I HELP YOU WHEN I'M FREAKING BUSY??!

The client has no complains but simply asks you to update.
Since you can compare, why not finish it all!

I'm just gonna depend on my mood.
If I can finish my stuff I plan today I'll help~ However, its 99% I can't.
WHAT THE HELLLLLLLL~~~

SHIT. SO PISSED AND MOODLESS TO WORK!

GONNA WORK THROUGH THE NIGHT YET AGAIN.

If I can't handle, I'll just gonna push it back. TRUST ME, I WILL!
YES, will try to be a BAD person for now!
Don't see why I should be nice to people who likes to take advantage of me~

ANOTHER 2 ITEMS DOWN FROM MY WISH LIST!
Overseas trip to TAIWAN & SLR CAMMY! omg!

its just a dream come true~ lovely dream~
(not like the wierd ones I have in my real sleep! >< )

I must have been soooooo OUT OF MY MIND!  +.+~
Nonetheless, I'm elated and with NO regrets as of now.
(of course I hope I won't have not even a itsy-bitsy of regret in the future!)

LET ME INTRODUCE THE NEW ADDITION TO OUR FAMILY (OUR NEW BABY!) :

LOVE LOVES~


I know I'm "hao lian-ing" it, but WHY NOT? hahs! Who bothers right? 

Though maybe someone might think I'm just dumb to get sucha expensive SLR
or even get a SLR, I DONT! (:

Hopefully I'll be able to take nice pictures and not waste the
photography skills I picked up in my poly electives!

My AIM to take something nice at least like this, in TAIWAN probably?! 


Downtown Kaohsiung, Taiwan

Not sure if I'll be up there to take this nice shot...? x)
BUT I'm sure there will be at least a hand full shots out of the MANYMANY will be Enticing!!!!


2 months left for practice. MEANWHILE, it helps to save the money spent shopping!
One-stone-kills-2-birdies~~

HAHAS.

Its LUNCH TIME (:  
with my darling~~

*****
seems to have loads of thots yesterday; not any now. But its good to write on happy thots~~

*****


UH~~ I'm soooo excited to getting hands on my EOS 450D! ^^
Well, I know its soo impluse to have already book tickets to Taiwan! HAHS.
And of course our new buy!

Well, before that I was still thinking we should consider.
But if after all the considerations, we have to be SARDINS (Its JAM Pack like sardins?),
why bother to go down again? :x

However, honestly speaking, I was still checking out on other SLR cameras just then.
And I'm finally convinced I had a good buy! LOL.

Nikon's prices varies from D60 - $988 and next is D90 $1688.
Though I seem to remember seeing one at $1299 but can't remember which, and guess its 10MP still.

For Sony, its Alpha 350 is DAMN temping too. But still, I feel like getting a Nikon/Canon SLR!

Had considered Canon's Powershot - SX1 (20X OPTICAL zoom).
But seems like if I top up a little to get a SLR, I could learn more and put the camera to better use? x)

YES, hence our EOS 450D at the IT FAIR 2009! (OURS = ME + DANI). lols.

SOME FREEBIES WE GOT:
From CANON:
2 x 8GB SD Card
Lens Workbook
EOS 450D User Guide Book (Red hard cover book!!)
Additional Battery
EOS bag
Rubber Tripod (DANI says its like duedo-i cant spell it?!)
Filter
Selphy Photo Printer

From OCBC:
$30 Voucher
$20 Out-bound steakhouse voucher
Fondue Set!
Sadly no ipoods! :((

And obviously Lucky draw coupons from the Event organisers.
And the coupons are good those ink-ed ones! "High tech seh?!!"
You write on one piece, it can literately 'Print' out 4 other pieces! LOLs.

2 hours more to knock off! TGIF! (even though its Fri the thirteen! Second one this year too! -.-) 

HAVE A HAPPY WEEKEND~!

AHA! Read the yahoo news every weekday morning and saw this!

WOW. boy oh boy. I don't know should I feel good about it or should I start to worry?!?

"Singapore is one of the most expensive cities in the world, according to the latest survey by the Economist Intelligence Unit, which shows the city—state moving up five positions to 10th place.

This means Singapore is now Asia’s third most expensive city to live in."

So many someday if I go to TOKYO (Claiming the top seat worldwide), I won't feel so much of a pinch? =.=''
HAHAS.

Another piece of news or should I say gossip!

"MUNICH - A man dubbed "the Swiss gigolo" by German media was sentenced to six years in prison Monday for defrauding the country's richest woman of euro7 million ($9 million) and attempting to blackmail her for millions more.

Helg Sgarbi (S'Gar-bee) admitted to the Munich court that he threatened to release secretly recorded videotapes of trysts with BMW heiress Susanne Klatten, 46, who was married, unless she gave him millions to keep quiet."

MILLIONS! OMG. can I have just one (million) SGD?? 我不贪心的！LOL.
And his name is cute, S'Gar-bee, sounds just like one of my snackos - Ja-ga-bee from Calbee :))


OKAY, I know this is crappy. Shall start going to work.

CHEERS~

Someone happen to forward this e-mail to me.
I thought, isn't it nice to learn something about Business, which apparently I would be persuing a higher education in?
HAHS!

*****

BUSINESS LOGICS

Father: I want you to marry a girl of my choice
Son: 'I will choose my own bride!'
Father: 'But the girl is Bill Gates's daughter.'
Son: 'Well, in that case...ok'

Next Father approaches Bill Gates.
Father: 'I have a husband for your daughter.'
Bill Gates: 'But my daughter is too young to marry!'
Father: 'But this young man is a vice-president of the World Bank.'
Bill Gates: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

Finally Father goes to see the president of the World Bank.
Father: 'I have a young man to be recommended as a vice-president.'
President: 'But I already have more vice- presidents than I need!'
Father: 'But this young man is Bill Gates's son-in-law.'
President: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

This is how business is done!!

Moral:
Even If you have nothing, You can get Anything.
But your attitude should be positive!


WHAT IS MARKETING?

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I am very rich. Marry me!'
That's Direct Marketing

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl.
One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says,
'He's very rich. Marry him.'
That's Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and get her telephone number.
The next day you call and say, 'Hi, I'm very rich. Marry me.'
That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
You get up and straighten your tie; you walk up to her and pour her a drink.
You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it,
offer her a ride, and then say, 'By the way, I'm very rich 'Will you marry me?'
That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl.
She walks up to you and says, 'You are very rich, I want to marry you.'
That's Brand Recognition.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party.
You go up to her and say, 'I'm rich. Marry me'
She gives you a nice hard slap on your face.
That's Customer Feedback.

*****

Hope this brightens up one's day like it did to mine! :D

Have you ever wonder what true love is?

What is it that is bringing you and your partner together?
Is it love, or lust, or infatuation?

 And if you are looking for love, would you recognize it if you found it?

Many of us are confused about love, and rightfully so.
We are told that true love must have chemistry and must have romance.
We probably don't know when we are in lust, in love, or infatuated.

( HERE ARE SOME DEFINATION OF LOVE )

The problem with love definitions is that they don't define. 

Although we may not know exactly what love is,
there is one definition that anyone who has ever been "in love" will accept-- Love is a wonderful thing.

WANT TO KNOW HOW? wikiHow and many other sites you google will tell you so :D

Apart from that, I known of a love, the sweetest kind I could relate to.
Though I may not know them for long; but yet saw some big quarrels,
but I still think its such a sweet affair that they've got!

Seeing how Mr. CT remains quiet, to Lynn's harshness.
How he remain clam to her rants. How he understands her.
How he could decribes her beauty which many deem digusting..?
How sweet dating they've got - be it overseas or in sg to places such as museum..? 
How cute & amusing pictures they've took and posted. 
How he shares new infos / knowledge with her; though she thinks its boring. 
Instead of seeing the flaws in Lynn, CT diverted them to deter his flaws.
(I'm not sure if FLAWS is ever the right word; but it depends on how you view the action I supposed?)
And many many sweet thoughts I could see within.. .. ..

How sweet!

Of cause, I might not have encounter their worst moments nor encounter much of their ups and downs as a couple, the way he small little things he did, I deem them LOVE.

Anyhow, he wrote:
Well, how should I describe our relationship, after passing our 7^th month mark? Hmm ... it is cruising in a Millennium Falcon at a speed of light. We seem to know each other for years. In the space of 6 months, we had gone through all the ups and downs, sharing the troubles and the fortunes. They could possibly make up one novel!

But if you think Incredible Lynnie can be described in just 7 paragraphs, then you are damned wrong. I going to use my lifetime to discover everything about Lynnie Tan.  Till then, tata....

I know these text might not mean anything. 

BUT, You can say I'm full of ENVIES   xD



 **CREDITS to Pat McChristie writings on defination of LOVE.